Today we are asked to list both positive and negative aspects of the Mother Goddess archetype in ourselves. Let’s see how I roll:
Positive Mother Goddess Qualities:
Caring; generosity; genuine concern for loved ones; caring for those who are broken and/or in need; ferocity when defending those I love; an attitude of tough love when necessary; the wisdom born of youth experiences; a willingness to share this wisdom; doing things for those I love when they are unable to do for themselves.
Occasional jealousy of a loved one receiving their love and nurturing from others; a tendency toward possessiveness of those I love; a ferocity when defending loved ones that may go over the line sometimes, tough love that can be a bit too tough; resentment that builds sometimes when I feel someone is being too needy.
In my defense:
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Today’s task was to light an orange candle, stand facing northeast, do the Maiden Goddess magical pass (hands and fingers forming a V over the groin), and recite the following prayer to invoke the Maiden Goddess:
“By Persephone and Pandora
By Ariadne and Athena
By Brigid and Branwen
And the countless names of power
By crescent moon and horn
Come ye Maiden Goddess
Thy holy rites reborn!”
-Timothy Roderick, Wicca: A Year and a Day
I performed the task but added to it an offering of incense as my Hellenistic training is such that I never approach any god empty-handed. I stood facing northeast and chanted the prayer three times. I then sat facing northeast and chanted the last three lines of the prayer over and over until I felt a quiet come over me.
In the background, the music I use to put me in a spiritual mindset was playing. When my chanting subsided, the song was an instrumental version of Leonard Cohen’s “Hallelujah.” In my mind’s eye I saw the Maiden Goddess and the young God dancing in an ethereal meadow that was before any other thing. I saw their relationship as complex, perhaps even uneasy at first, yet with deep, abiding love. I thought of Hera and Zeus and how, despite popular conception, and despite their enduring rows, they were deeply in love and whose love-making shook all the stars and all the heavens.
The song changed and I saw the Maiden Goddess building the universe star by star. All that is was once thought and each star she brought forth in the palm of her hand was her thought, manifested. She let the star spin there, gathering its own light, then blew softly upon it to send it out into the ether the way one would blow upon a dandelion head to scatter the seeds.
I saw her look at me and wink.
Creation is not reserved only for motherhood.
This morning the task was to wake up before dawn, face northeast, light an orange candle, call upon the maiden aspect of the Great Goddess, and intone the sound “you” twice before meditating on the maiden for fifteen to twenty minutes.
I did all of that. I can’t tell you what’s gotten into me of late. It’s probably the fact that I can feel Autumn coming in the chilly mornings that began just after Lammas. That always gets my magical juices flowing. I want to feel joy in my religion again and, for me, that means going back to Wicca, where my wonder with, and joy in, Paganism started. It means chucking all the “Silly Rabbit, Wicca is for kids,” internal chatter with which every Pagan gets inundated. There is that crowd, you know, that sucks the joy out of everything. There is that crowd that knows better. There is that crowd that points out all the flaws and peccadillos of everyone else’s religion while touting their own as the A#1 most authentic.
Nertz to them. I dig Wicca, witchy toad warts and all. It tickles me. It makes me feel that little thrill I first felt when I came to Paganism. It forces my intellect to give it a rest already and teaches me to go with the flow. My long-held philosophy is that, in the end, none of us will have it right and we’ll all be surprised, so why not go with what feels good?
All of this to explain why I’m back in the Wicca: A Year and a Day book.
I’ve tried many, many times to work with this book and have never made it past the Maiden intonation. I did it today and am very proud of myself. It wasn’t too hard. I woke up at around 11:00pm and couldn’t sleep at all thereafter so, at 5:19am, an hour before sunrise, there was me and the Maiden and the orange candle and a big “Why not?”
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